And I felt cute all day. Yes. I said it. I felt cute. You know, nothing's really changed on the outside yet, so why I felt cute today and not a month ago is worth talking about. I know why and it's not magic! It's repeatable!
It's those Next Right Choices I keep making!
When I am not taking care of myself, not eating well, not exercising, not performing to potential at work, not keeping my house up.....when any of those things start falling away I start a downward trend into not feeling very good about myself. And that in turn results in projecting that negative self image outward. It's a very real pattern. And once one area goes (like say, eating), it does trickle into the next area (keeping the house clean) and then next (my parenting skills) and the next (depression) and the next (my job.)
When I AM taking care of myself, am eating well, am exercising, am performing to potential at work, am keeping my house up....when those things are in place (by just making one next right choice after the other, one at a time, until they build up to a lot of good stuff), I maintain a positive attitude and THAT gets projected to the outside where even *I* can see it in the mirror!
I have lots of ideas/opinions/tips/tricks about baby steps, making small next right choices, etc. and will delve into my recent history to share some of what I've learned. But I'll save that for another blog on another day. For now, I'm going to take myself to bed early because that's a really good next right choice for today!
And that seems to be really working for me right now!!!
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Way to go and happy Friday!
ReplyDeleteJill
Everything that you speak of, I completely relate to. Sometimes I think you are talking to me. I'm very inspired by you. We may have different challenges but what's happening inside is pretty similar. I want to make the next right choice too. I have different obstacles than you. You have expressed being lonely - which I see as having the necessary time needed to accomplish your goals.
ReplyDeleteI have a husband, who loves me to death and wants to be with me 24/7. He is also the chef of the house and lives to cook elaborate dinners most not very calorie/fat conscious. If I try to diet he gets cross with me because after all - he thinks I'm gorgeous just the way I am. Even though I've told him it's not about him and what he thinks, it's about me and what I, not only think, but more importantly what I feel. And often times, I feel hopeless.
I work full time and have very limited time for anything. He works full time too, but his day starts earlier and ends earlier than mine. When I get home around 6 p.m. He's there with a home cooked meal waiting for me. I know - poor baby right? Well it takes a lot of the control away from me (did I mention I'm a control freak?) And I feel like I have to respect him and eat the always delicious, more often than not, butter, cream, oil, pasta, fattening meals.
I try to make up for it by eating a healthy breakfast and lunch but dinner is an important meal too. I know that it would be better for me to eat a big breakfast and lunch and then a light dinner for optimal weight loss.
Anyways, I just want you to know that I think you are an awesome, awesome lady. It puzzles me that you don't have more company in your life because you seem like damn good company.
I've looked at your before and now photo blog and you've come a long way. You look amazing and you are inspiring other too.
Thank you for sharing... you.
Sincerely,
Free4today aka Cherise Liston