Momentum

Sometimes it is hard to maintain momentum.  It is SO easy to get discouraged.  And as much love and support I get here and on Facebook, I don't have anyone at home cheering me on or appreciating the effort that is going into this Carly Project.

So I have to find ways to boost myself up.

Earlier today I revisited the weight and size goals I have set for myself for this summer.  It's daunting.  It's "biggest loser" daunting.  And what I felt like doing was coming home and just eating everything in sight and saying to hell with it.  But I know that would just make me sad and angry.  So instead I went looking for some before pics I took the same week I started this blog.  

I didn't post them because I was mortified, frankly.  I have others like them that I'll show later on as I get closer to my goal.  But these are significant.  Earlier this week I posed in the same place at work so I could compare and then I forgot about doing that.  Holy Moly.

I can't ever see a difference in myself looking in the mirror.  To me it's the same me I saw a couple of months ago.  But when I step back and see the photos side by side?  I'm thrilled.  And I'm barely into the process...there IS a long long way to go.  In fact, I'm not so sure I'll reach my goal by December 31, 2011.  Even so, I'm so happy tonight to see a visible difference.  Coworkers have said they see it and of course my clothes are getting baggy, but I don't SEE IT myself.  In these photos, I do.

Well, isn't that a little shot in the arm?

Momentum restored.  Off to do 30 minutes on the treadmill.  Yay!

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