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Friday, March 29, 2013

One Year Ago - Good Friday

Spring in Tennessee Reminds me of Mom
Last year on Good Friday I sat with my mother in the hospital, holding her hand, while the doctor gave her
the diagnosis of inoperable, untreatable stage four lung cancer.

I can't write deeply about it yet. I will one day. She was truly an amazing woman, who layed down her life for those she loved, and she really loved most everyone. Her faith in God, her belief that people are basically good, and her determination to stay positive despite life's many difficulties is a testimony to the power of positive thinking. I am overwhelmed and in awe of her spirit and pray I can be more like her as I grow and mature (hey, it takes some of us longer than others.)  :-)

I find hope and peace knowing that on Good Friday, Jesus walked into his fate, bravely, and willingly. My mom walked out her last few weeks with an amazing grace, beauty and acceptance that I still can't quite wrap my brain around. And she believed her whole life in God's Word.

This passage means a lot to me this morning:

John 11:23-25 Jesus said to her, “Your brother will rise again.”  Martha said to Him, “I know that he will rise again in the resurrection on the last day.” Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in Me will live even if he dies.

My mother loved to paint clouds, skies, sunsets, and landscapes. Mom, if you are up there, I hope you are using all of your mad artist skillz and painting the beautiful, gorgeous Tennessee skies I see every day. In my heart, you are.

I am taking my son on a hiking adventure this weekend, climbing to six different waterfalls. I am thankful for the health and fitness level to be able to do this.  And I am grateful to see the clouds and trees and beauty of nature through my mom's eyes.  That is just one of many gifts she gave to me.

This is one of the most profound Christian songs I have ever heard.  And it reminds me of her so much. Good Friday is not good.  It brings pain, sorrow, and sadness.  But Easter is three days away. Then the angels will rejoice.  And my mom is one of them.  xoxox

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John 15:13
A greater love hath no man than this, that he would lay his life down for his friends.


  1. Hello admin i want to say that with the heavy weight must have joint pain so please reduce your weight and away from that pain ....
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    Fight With Cancer

  2. AnonymousMay 01, 2013

    Want to say first off. Carly I am so proud of you, I am so on board and kind of have shared some of the journey already. I lost my mom to lung cancer Oct 3, 2002. I also strive every day to become the wonderful, kind,giving and loving women my mother was. I quit the nasty cigarette habit for the last time on June 11, 2012. I have put on 30 lbs of extra weight and now must get even more active to shed it. I love nature also so everyday it's long walks in the woods with Malcolm (my dog) thanks again for the invitation to share. I'll be reading!!!!! KTQ


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