Rabbit: Well, goodbye, if you're sure you won't have any more.
Winnie the Pooh: [turns to leave then stops] *Is* there any more?
Rabbit: No, there isn't.
Winnie the Pooh: I thought not.
Winnie the Pooh: [tries to climb out the front door but is stuck] Oh, oh, help and bother! I'm stuck.
Rabbit: Oh, dear. Oh, gracious. Oh. Well, it all comes from eating too much.
Winnie the Pooh: It all comes from not having front doors big enough!
I went to the gym today for my monthly weigh-in and measurements. I am the exact same weight I was one month ago. My waist measurement is somehow up .5" (one half inch.) My hips are down .5" (one half inch) but everything else is basically the same.
A tiny part of me feels like throwing in the the towel and gorging myself on every wretched thing imaginable. That's the emotional and shame-based part of me. Fortunately, the thinking/knowing/reasoning part of me knows I would suffer from that kind of choice miserably and it would accomplish nothing. It would take me further from my goals. It's not an option.
So where do I go from here? I examine what I am doing or not doing and make adjustments.
For starters, I somehow slowed way down on my treadmill activity at home. (to like once a week, twice tops - and for 20 to 30 minutes instead of 30 to 45. Big differences, really.) I also stopped recording my workouts. I don't even know when I stopped. It wasn't deliberate, it just kind of fell away. Recording works for me. I can see what I'm doing and track my progress (or lack thereof). To me, accountability is a big problem.
My trainer also told me that the elliptical I have been using for a few months is probably doing me a disservice. It's working my hips and legs, but I'm not burning the kind of fat I could be burning by doing intervals on the treadmill. Okay...treadmill it shall be for a while.
I am so thankful I haven't had any net gains since last month. Because I haven't been paying close attention to the details, they got away from me. Well, back to business. I don't have to do everything perfectly, but I DO have to actually DO everything! (Eat well, exercise, get on the scale, record my progress, etc.)
I don't feel too badly right now (though I felt so upset this morning.) I have had a lot going on in my physical and emotional worlds and managed to not gain weight this month. I'll take that. But I can do better, and so better I shall do. I only have one more month with the trainer and by golly, I'm going to go out with a bang.