-- Bonnie Arbon
I love this quote. It reminds me that, while I seem to love being the center of my universe and focusing on me, me, me.....there are other people with whom I interact who are learning something from me. It can be uncomfortable to stop and reflect on what, exactly, I am teaching through my words and actions, and to whom.
I am quite sure I have served as an example of "what not to do" a time or three in my life. I'm sure I have filled in holes in some people's lives with a puzzle piece of sadness or anger or confusion or mistrust or doubt.
I'd like to think I've also filled in pieces of others' lives with laughter, love, connectedness, friendship and warmth.
I get so caught up in survival mode in life that I forget that that my life does actually intersect with others. I generally feel pretty disconnected from people living out on an emotional island. I sometimes feel like my thoughts and actions don't really matter out in the world (except, of course, to my son where I am painfully aware I am being watched and serving as a primary role model...that's scary.) Do you ever feel that way?
Well, you matter and so do I. I sometimes forget this truth. And then someone I don't know and have never met will send me an email telling me they joined a gym, or made themselves get on their treadmill...because something I wrote on the blog inspired them. That's pretty humbling and it makes me want to make sure that the pieces of me that are placed into someone else's puzzle going forward are light and not dark, positive and not negative; I want to increase love and hope in the world, not decrease them....and I am reminded that I get to choose.
I don't know how I am perceived and I can't control those perceptions. What I can control are my own choices.
Maybe my job is to remain authentic, to speak from the heart, to keep it real, and to try to make more next right choices than next wrong ones....and let God take care of how those puzzle pieces all fit together.