Someone wrote: "I am not fat. I HAVE fat, but *I* am not "fat.""
It struck me profoundly.
Fat really IS used as a dirty word, a weapon, and a way of putting someone down. "She's so fat" may imply to some people that she is lazy, doesn't care about herself, is sloppy, is messy. It can be synonymous with "ugly" or "unattractive" or even "repulsive."
"I"m fat," when I said it, didn't mean the obvious (there was excess fat on my body.) It was that plus, I am hopeless, I have no will power, and I am a FAILURE.
When I started this process I had a Body Mass Index (BMI) of 45.91 putting me in a "super obese" category. That meant that 45.91% of my body was fat! I am currently at 37.59, putting me in a Class 2 Obesity level. I will be at approximately 34% by this summer , 29% by October (Just 'regular' overweight) and 24% by December 31st...my big goal....just having the "normal" amount (healthiest amount) of body fat.
Here is a BMI Chart to show the categories:
What is striking to me, in all of this, is how my attitude has shifted about it all. The term "fat" no longer comes with self condemnation. It is a word to describe the state of my body and looking at it regularly (doing the BMI calculations) is a good measure of my progress toward my health and fitness goals.
I am not fat. I have fat. (And That's OKAY!!!! It does not define me any more. Yay!)