(I am exploring adult ADHD and the very real likelihood that contributes to my derailability. Yes, I made up that word. You like? hehe)
I am starting to recognize that there are patterns to my stumbles which can lead to derailment. I don't know which comes first - an emotional trigger or a physical one, but the same basic pattern happens:
- I eat something that is not planned for, not healthy, and sugary, or floury, or fatty that makes me feel badly (physically or emotionally).
- The next day it is SO easy to do it again. Only on this day I may not work out either.
- The next day I can't even look at a vegetable in the refrigerator. I don't feel like fixing anything healthy. I don't feel like chopping, dicing, preparing. I want something easy and carb-loaded.
- I feel like total crap and feel myself totally slipping. I don't want to clean the house. I don't want to get healthy groceries. I don't want to DO anything. I am lethargic and blah feeling.
- I start beating myself up for my shortcomings. I am weak. I want to get on track but can't. I am frustrated. I get panicky. The house is more cluttered. My mind is more cluttered. I become less "able."
And just like there are patterns to slipping in this way, there is also a "Never Fail" list of steps I can take to turn it back around.
- Get honest about it. Tell someone. Be accountable. It may not be my fault (per se) that a slip started, but only I can turn it back around and you can't fix what you don't acknowledge.
- Make ONE freaking next right food choice. Period. Make a salad. Choose a nice egg white omelet. Eat an apple. Eat SPINACH. That almost always turns the food day around for me.
- MOVE. Get showered, get dressed, put on shoes, and GO SOMEWHERE. Get out of the house. DO something.
- EXERCISE. There is nothing like fresh exercise to put my brain back together (kind of like unscrambling an egg, if that were possible.)
- Do one nice thing for myself. Maybe a pedicure, an eyebrow wax, picking up some new lip gloss...something that reminds me that I'm worth being nice to.
That's it. That turns it around. It never fails to turn it around. I have to FORCE myself sometimes. I don't WANT to do those things when I feel crappy. BUT....I know if I don't, I will feel even crappier and continue a downward spiral that leads toward total darkness.
I have seen the light that comes from making healthy, positive next right choices. I have enjoyed the freedom that comes with good self care and forward motion. And I want more and more of that. I am not willing to slip backwards,
So today, I am making myself accountable and calling it out. (Overate at a party Thursday, then had a ton of pizza Friday, ate fairly badly Saturday, and by Sunday didn't exercise and didn't eat a single healthy thing. Also didn't go anywhere, do anything, and felt lethargic all day.)
I am working out in a few minutes.
Then I am making a nice green smoothie for breakfast...with spinach.
I am bringing in a great salad for lunch, with some apples and healthy snacks.
And I will call this a 4 day blip and not a derailment. Because I won't let it become one.
This is not easy....and with what I believe are ADHD complications it gets even more difficult to manage.
But those never fail steps to turn it around REALLY never fail. So no matter why I slipped (it really doesn't matter, does it?) I have a PLAN and a prescription to keep reaching my goals.
Think about what works for you. What turns around a "slip?" What turns around negativity for you? Write it down into a couple of SIMPLE steps and put it on your refrigerator or monitor or bathroom mirror. And fall back onto it when you can't seem to get the motivation you need.
I (we) can do this. Absofreakinglutely. No excuses.
Nike was right. Just do it!